I find myself caught by yet another high school crush that most likely will go nowhere. I have so much trouble ever bringing myself to make anything out of these crushes. I don't see the point. Sure I like them enough to want to date them, but the futility of it all won't stop glaring me in the face. Won't we just break up eventually? One month, two months? What have I to gain from a relationship that will not stand the test of time. Why would I create something that will shrivel up and die in two months? Is it even worth it?
I feel like I shouldn't even try to begin a relationship if I don't feel an overwhelming amount of love towards this person. I don't feel like having a crush is even enough. What's the point, if I don't see myself spending the rest of my life with this person? I mean maybe our relationship would grow from whatever it began as, but it's far from a sure thing.
This is why I think relationships - and I mean real relationships - should stem from close friendships. To be honest, I don't even know this girl as well as a could. My normal plan would be to continue our friendship (which would happen anyway, most likely) until I feel like I really do want to be in a relationship with her. However, if I wait too long, the feeling fades, and what could have been, almost definitely will not be.
I just feel like my heart wouldn't fully be in it if I went for it now. I also feel like I'm making the same mistakes and expecting different results.
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as weird as it feels compared to most of the teenage population, I think you definitely have the right idea.
I have been in a similar situation. It was a big dilemma for me but I followed my heart. Turned out to be the dumbest thing in my life, but at the same time I guess it was the coolest thing I have done.
Well I think next time I face another situation like that I'll still be confused. Hard life!
who's the lucky one?
if ya don't mind my asking?
If the feeling fades eventually, then you know that the relationship wasn't worth trying for. You're not alone in questioning the point of high school crushes/relationships. I sometimes wonder about them myself. I think you have a couple options now: you can either say that you're going to wait until you know its the real thing, or you can stop analyzing your crushes, take the relationship for what it is, and even though you know that you probably won't marry who you date in high school, just go with it and you can take it as a growing experience and let it shape you as a person and help you find out what you're looking for in a partner. When you like someone, you don't immediately have to label it as a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship. You can just see where it takes you.
Thanks Mr. Anonymous, but half the trouble is choosing one of those at all :/
And to the FIRST Mr. Anonymous, sorry, I don't reaveal personal stuff to Anonies :)
Wow that long comment is pretty incredible and true, I totally agree. High school relationships don't last, but the friendship, in my eyes, is what really matters in the end. But who doesn't like feeling wanted? Especially when it's pretty hard to come by in hs
If anonymous #1 reveals their identity will you tell the person in question?
it's ms. anonymous, and it's entirely up to you. if it was me i would wait, but then again, i'm kind of a wuss when it comes to this stuff, and i haven't really felt much of anything for anyone in this high school.
Anony#1: Nope! But I'd still like to know who you are.
Ms. Anony: I think that's what I'll end up doing too :/ High five for being wuss'? Wussi? Wuss...ians...
Anyway, I'd li,e to know who you are too, Ms. Anony
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